Sometimes when there's nowhere left to run

Lyrics | Eliza Bennett - My Declaration lyrics
Though I had a great couple of productive days where I felt I was really getting a handle on things and gaining a bit more confidence in my work before I left for my vacation, I've picked up on an ugly vibe upon my return.

Perhaps it is just the changes with a new reporter coming in and all, and the growing pressure of a boost in printshop business with no added staff to take up the extra workload and I'm just overanalyzing things, but it seems like I need to 'prove' myself all over again.

So I keep telling myself that I will do what I can and if at some point that is not good enough for someone then they can just stuff it...I'm just going to keep doing my thing the best way I know how.

Work my hand to the bone

The new girl is nice :) She was really nervous and I think she was on information overload once or twice, but all in all I think it'll work out just fine.

I'm on the road for a better part of the day tomorrow, so I don't know how I'm supposed to be at my desk for my call-back interviews, but I guess we'll just wing it for this week. We have some spill over stories from last week so that's good.

So here's a picture of my "I think it's finished, but I'm not 100% sure yet" piece.

With its leafy pattern I don't think I could not have found a more perfect frame, and though I just popped it up on the wall for a 'mantle stage' I think it may have found its home.

Temptation
9" X 12"
Pastel on 140lb. cold press paper



(I hope you can see the detail on the frame)

Emotional day at work

Today was my first day back at work from my vacation *snicker* and my lovely co-worker, whom I went out to dinner and drinks with last night came by to say her goodbyes to the staff.

I knew she was going to make me cry...

First it was when I read the letter she snuck into my desk, and then after I gave her an extended hug I sat back down but she came back three more times to hug me and that's when I lost it. Of course the Editor who was driving her off to the airport was all Mr. Macho "get out of here", though she did manage to make someone else in the office cry before she walked out the door.

Good memories, and we are all going to miss her.

A new reporter starts tomorrow and I'm not sure how it's going to go as it seems she was having second thoughts before having even taken up the position, but perhaps tis only the jitters of being fresh out of school and moving away from her family to take up a new job...so we shall see.

All in all not a bad day.

Oh, oh, oh!!! Friday I'm going to visit a castle we didn't even know existed in our county. Apparently it has a moat, towers, and a dungeon. It's up for sale and before it changes hands we're doing a story, so I have to dig for its history which I am stoked about.

(I wonder if it comes with a ghost?)

I'll have to ask the owner what the asking price is and if I win the lottery I'm buying it! lol It would make THE perfect B & B.

Here's a little ditty I heard on the ride home tonight

Cusp it all!

I often wonder why maintaing a certain balance is such an integral part of who I am, when I really shouldn't question it at all for it lays at the very root of me. I was born on the cusp of Libra/Scorpio (October 19 to October 23)

more here...

Though it's a bit cloudy today, the sun is offering a promising respite to the 10 straight days of rain we've had during my summer vacation...yeah ok, that's all I'm going to say about it save to say I'm going to try to make the most of the few remaining days I have. (though I still have lots of cleaning to do...shup, it's a part of the balance!)

Now off to visit my parents I go and if there's any time left to be had I will either paint, draw, or work on a gift-giving project for a couple of family members.

Happy Birthday Canada!

Bit of a grey dull day really but 'tis cause to celebrate all the same.

Today I want to set the record straight with a bit of a history lesson, that is, if you think you're up for it? hehe

It has been officially documented folks, I give you, Canada's sexual history...lol enjoy!

And if you really want to help me celebrate, go do something sexy today!

Plein Air Artwork

From my patio table

(I guess this is my 'tree of life')



Temptation (yep methinks I will stick with its original title)
11" X 15"

Pastel on 140 lbs cold press paper

(clickety click for full size viewing)



'tis still a work in progress but I do like the effect of the gold leafing, though the camera does not do it justice. To see the progression of this piece simply click the Artwork label on the lefthand side of this page and scroll downward.(I have suddenly gotten lazy)

I found a perfect frame for it that I want to buy on Thursday though I plan to alter it a bit.

Oh and the other piece is an experiment with a different type of paper that I am finding does not have the right 'tooth' for my chalks, therefore I can't seem to work in layers the way I do with the cold press paper, but we'll see what I can do with it.

You know it's time to keep your mouth shut when...

Last night when I opened the door to let my kitty in I opened my mouth to talk to him and I swallowed a moth.

I gagged, vomited and had an upset stomach all night and damned if it doesn't feel like the little flutterbug is still stuck in my trachea somewheres...

I shall try washing it down with scalding coffee, perhaps that will make the feeling go away.

I did find this interesting tidbit about moths...

[snip]

Symbolic Meaning of the Moth
Written by avenefica on April 9th, 2008

I’ve been asked about the symbolic meaning of the moth.

It took me a few days to really jive with this amazing creature, but once allowed access, I was given some incredible insights.

Moths are nocturnal, and much of their symbolism deals with:

•Intuition
•Psychic perception
•Heightened awareness

Indeed, many people who are spiritual practitioners (particularly of an esoteric ilk) attract the moth as their animal totems.

As if being a night-dweller weren’t enough, the moths are babes of the moon. They follow the mother moon as a source of light, and this connects them with some powerful moon associations such as:

•Knowledge of the Otherworld
•Second sight
•Influence
•Prophesy
•Clarity

However, those of us who fly high with the moth must be mindful to not be too carried away by her influence. Moon creatures such as moths ask us to have a firm foundation before lunar journeying.

The moth expresses some tender vulnerabilities. We may take this as a message to be open to our heightened spiritual experiences yet allow for adjustment and protection too.

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So there you go, even if it wasn't very tasty, it was rather bland but felt kinda fuzzy like cotton, I have found an interesting way to take it all in stride ;)

Gotta skedadle, toodles~

In all things beautiful

In your light I learn how to love
In your beauty, how to make poems.

You dance inside my chest
where no one sees you

but sometimes I do,
and that sight becomes this art

~Rumi

Rain talks

Last night I sat in the carport
to have a conversation with the rain
falling on my tin roof.
We are old friends,
but had much catching up to do.
As always when we parted
I felt deeply sated,
and brought many
of the thoughts we broached
with me to dreams.
It was there that you lingered
until the arms of slumber
then gently nudged me awake.
I wiped the sleep from my eyes
but left this smile
tugging playfully at my lips
for the remainder of the day.

Asphodel
©06.29.09

Though rain clouds hang heavily in the air today, there is a certain calmness to the day, or perhaps tis only day 6 of my vacation time kicking in, lol

Circumstance prevented the planning of a few activities, but I'm aiming to re-schedule a weekend in Quebec City as well as an outing to a Safari Park with my youngest and a few nephews and nieces. I have a couple of banked days that I can just tag for a couple of extended weekends in July and in August perhaps.

Next weekend is the boy's soccer tournament to mark the end of the season, so once that's out of the way it'll clear up the calendar for planning somewhat.

The first coat of fixative has dried on my artwork so I think I will be applying another dimension today.

Pics will ensue...

Ta~